So I Stay.

When things are good, I have less desire to make a change -- but I can't help blunting my happiness by wishing that I was more able to appreciate it and enjoy it. I'm more likely to be strong when things are good, and this makes me think that I can endure the inevitable bad times to come. So I stay.

When things are bad, I become desperate for something to change -- but I get so wrapped up in hopelessness that I'm less likely to have the energy to do anything about it. Even when I do get the energy, it comes from a negative place of anger and frustrtation; I doubt any urge to change because it seems like self-destruction, like impulsiveness and waste. So I stay.